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More Than We Imagine by GwillaTheDragon More Than We Imagine by GwillaTheDragon
Another space picture, even though I don't come on much anymore, I haven't forgotten any of you amazing people.

I've been kinda busy thinking about life in general. The path we go on through eternity.

Lately, my physical life hasn't changed at all. It's kinda just been like every other summer.
However, mentally, it's a much different story.
I may have been raised up in my religion and known it from the start of my life here on earth, but I still learn new stuff all the time.
Like learning new reasons every day why the crap I'm even here.

Specifically tonight I've been wishing I could be a little kid again. Mostly because I'm nearly 18.
I also have an anxiety disorder and so I worry about things. A lot. Many of the things are mistakes I've made.
A lot of people wish they could do things over, but its kinda more than that.
You see, I believe that everyone should be forgiven, but my problem is that everyone includes myself.
Whenever I make a mistake or do something I know I shouldn't have, I don't forget it. Ever.
The worst part is many of the things I don't forgive myself over either. I can't inside my head.
So one of those "just get over it" phrases doesn't help at all.

I think a lot about how everything is supposed to fit in somewhere, but I just don't see this one.
So I've been going around in circles trying to get everything right in my head.
My head feels like its just a big bowl of yuck.

I wish there was a way this could be easier.
So right now I am having I very hard time getting over my last stupid mistake that stupid me made.
Right now it's so bad I can't even get to sleep because of it.
I kinda want to hit something but its night now so I don't want to wake anyone up.
More than anything I want to sing.

So as I sit here thinking about everything, my favorite bit is knowing that it'll be alright eventually. Hopefully.
I am really scatter brained so one minute I think about crud like this and the next I am thinking about the beauty of the universe.
And so I get to this last part where I'm thinking about how awesome God is cause he literally made everyone.
and cares about everyone
and listens to everyone
and does a bunch of other stuff. For everyone.
So I guess if he can do that, he can help me forgive myself. I think I can do my bit of that. Maybe.
That's another problem I have, self-confidence, topic for another day.

Goodness it's almost 3 in the morning here.

I probably won't be on much as I try to work this out. 

So thanks to those of you that actually give a crud.
And listened to my rant.

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:iconkyrinthewindwarrior:
KyrintheWindWarrior Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, someone's been thinking a lot lately. And yeah, thinking about turning 18 is scary,
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GwillaTheDragon Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah ugh. hey have you gone to the fair yet?
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:iconkyrinthewindwarrior:
KyrintheWindWarrior Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not yet. It's my mom that usually gets us to go.
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GwillaTheDragon Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
its amazing! do you dress up?
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:iconkyrinthewindwarrior:
KyrintheWindWarrior Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I did one year and almost overheated.
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GwillaTheDragon Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
hehe
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KyrintheWindWarrior Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
:| (Blank Stare) 
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:icongwillathedragon:
GwillaTheDragon Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Oops! 
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